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Living authentically was the message that Pastor Eddie Lawrence preached to his flock, but his truth went no further than the pulpit. Although he was openly bisexual on social media, the cleric was often sidetracked by being closeted within his church. Living in the light with Tiara for all his congregation to see was one thing. Living a separate secret life with O'Neill, however, would completely flip his life all the way around.Trapped between living authentically and maintaining a façade for family and Church, forces Pastor Lawrence to make some choices that are detrimental to all those around him. Taking a break from the secluded life of his ministry and preaching virtually seems to be the solution to his unholy dilemma, until his real life inevitably catches up with him.New relationships-- both male and female-- give the cleric temporary pleasure, albeit with lots of drama. Tiara is pushing Pastor Lawrence to marry her, while O'Neill instead encourages him to live in his truth. Finding himself entangled in lies, sex, addictions, and webs of deception, Pastor Lawrence must struggle to reconcile these soul-wrenching contradictions, all while trying to preach the word of God every Sunday!.

First times, fast times, past times...

Boston, 1975. Nicky DeMarco, a naïve but game 18-year-old, is navigating his first semester of college when he falls into a surprising-and life-altering-romantic triangle with Joe, a charismatic, big-hearted jock, and Lori, a warm and adventurous psych student. The three embark on a secret, joyous, and passionate journey of self-discovery as Nicky questions his sexuality-and all that entails. It turns into an emotional high-wire act and loyalty test with unexpected consequences for the trio's present and future, one which we flash forward to some fifty years later when Nicky and Joe reunite back where it all began.

PLEASE COME TO BOSTON is a vivid and evocative snapshot of that youthful time of life when the world is laid out in front of us with all its amazing, intoxicating, and terrifying possibilities-and the thorny complications that can follow.

Gary Goldstein's third novel is a funny, nostalgic, and bittersweet look at first love at a time when exploring one's sexual orientation and authentic self was riskier, more uncharted territory, yet with so many of the same defining issues that resonate today.

What readers are calling the gay Eat, Pray, Love...

Sometimes, to find yourself, you must first burn everything down.

Karl had it all; a husband, a home in the Los Angeles Hills, success. When his marriage ended suddenly, his perfect life and sense of self were shattered.

His legal battles threatened everything he had, and he soon found himself working non-stop, leading to a downward spiral filled with anxious days and sleepless nights of rage and fear.

Ironically, Karl's divorce ignited a journey of self-discovery-a quest for identity, love, and acceptance that took him from LA to a mid-divorce crash-landing in Berlin.

This raw and unflinching memoir welcomes readers into the heart of Karl's transformative journey-burning the scripts written for him by both the gay and straight worlds, facing down his deepest fears, and forging his own path to self-love.

How To Burn A Rainbow is a gripping narrative of resilience and courage that dares to ask the hard questions about love, equality, and the price of happiness.

In the end, Karl's marriage didn't make him whole, his divorce did.

Calvin and Graham Silver used to be in love.The spark in their eleven year marriage is gone, and they're struggling to regain a hold on their life together. Living apart and facing their end, Calvin makes an announcement Graham never saw coming.He's seeing someone new.Calvin's admission paves the way for Graham to pursue Emory Edgewood, a charming younger man he hasn't been able to get out of his head. It doesn't matter to Graham that Emory is seeing someone else, but he doesn't know Emory's other man is Calvin.Wanting to have his cake and eat it too, Emory tries to bring both men he's seeing together, only to have it end with disastrous consequences. His home life and love life are spiraling out of control. Emory thinks he has no one to turn to, but that couldn't be further from the truth.Because Calvin and Graham are in love again...but this time, with him.

Reed Matthews lives a quiet and structured life in Edgewood. A devout Catholic going on his sixth year as principal at Our Lady of the Mount School, Reed thrives on routine. But one unplanned excursion for Chinese takeout is enough to send his meticulously-constructed world into a tailspin.After growing up in foster care, Dominic O'Halloran decided to enter seminary in his early twenties, and he's dedicated his adult life to creating a safe space for the LGBT community. Weeks after answering the call from St. Paul's Episcopal and moving to Edgewood, Dominic finds himself face-to-face with the one person he's never been able to leave in the past--his childhood best friend.Dominic and Reed find themselves entangled in decades old unresolved feelings and very new emotions. Reed is terrified of losing his soul, and Dominic is worried about losing his heart. But all it takes is one make-believe moment for them to realize they'd throw everything away for another chance for happiness together.

Name - Callahan McMillianAge - 31Relationship status - Very single, and I like it that way. Looking for - Someone to make my ex-boyfriend jealous for the weekend. Biggest regret - Rhys St. GeorgeHobbies - N/AName - Jace Dare Age - 26Relationship status - DTFLooking for - a good time, not a long timeBiggest regret - kissing that hottie at the bar two weeks ago and letting him leave without getting his phone numberHobbies - art, photography, dancing, hanging out with my friendsCallahan and Jace couldn't be less compatible, but they've been set up for the weekend and there's no going back. Callahan's pride is on the line, his mouth is all over Jace, and they need to put in the performance of a lifetime if they're going to make their very fake relationship look convincing. To sell the lie, Jace and Callahan reach an agreement: real attraction, pretend emotion. But when make believe turns into making love, the only people they're fooling are themselves.

Theo Bruster has a bad habit.You could call him attentive or observant, and you would not be wrong, because Theo has always liked to watch. Growing up in a hotel has given him an exciting and easy life, but he's ready to put some space between himself and the only home he's ever known.But sometimes when you're not looking for anything, you find something, and Brad and Theo are about to learn that the hard way.Brad has secrets that not even his brothers know, but he finds himself opening up to Theo and trusting him in ways that are new to them both. The relationship that develops between them might be unconventional, but under Theo's watchful eye, Brad can re-gain control and for the first time in his life, be fearless.---Fearless is #4 in the Room for Love series. It is a 67,000 word hurt/comfort romance between a man who loves to watch and another who doesn't feel seen. Fearless has EVERYTHING you would expect from a Kate Hawthorne book...and more.

Name - Sebastian St. George
Age - 31
Relationship status - Divorced and Questioning
Looking for - Anyone who isn't my ex-wife
Biggest regret - Not buying more vodka before I got home
Hobbies - Apparently philanthropy...

Name - Remington Dockery
Age - 27
Relationship status - Single and...very single.
Looking for - Someone who doesn't mind that I'm not experienced but still want to be in control
Biggest regret - A lifetime of inaction
Hobbies - Reading, preserving rare books, reading some more, researching...

Sebastian isn't sure if he's interested in men, but he knows he's interested in Remington Dockery. The younger man is awkward but bold, and after calling on Remington for help one afternoon, Sebastian can't stop thinking about him. Remington thinks Sebastian is a mess, but he might be just the kind of man Remington has been waiting for. After a string of e-mails, a lot of money changing hands, and some first-time encounters, Remington and Sebastian are about to find out how complicated and messy love can be.

Justin
Micah has been my world for the last six years. He's the man I love, the only person I want, and my number one priority. I've never been able to tell him no, but when he proposes we bring another man into our marriage, I don't know what to say. I trust Micah with all things, so when he tells me he thinks Keith would be good for us, I find a way to trust him with that too.

Keith
Even though I've left the past behind me, I don't think I deserve men like Justin and Micah. Between Micah's kind-hearted acceptance of me and Justin's stoic composure and guiding hand, the two of them have opened my eyes to a world I didn't know existed. For a fleeting moment, the future I've always wanted is within my grasp.

Micah
Justin is the best man I've met and opening things up to include Keith won't change that. Through the years we've been together, I've always been able to trust Justin would put me first, so when everything we've built is on the line, I have to believe he'll still be there. Neither of us expected Keith, and neither of us expected the hell that came with him, but I hope, in the end, they'll both agree our love is worth fighting for.

Worth the Fight is the third book in the Giving Consent Series. It can stand alone and is 75,000 words of sort of second chance menage involving an already established relationship, ice cream, arcade games, and a surprisingly nurturing dominant.

Aaron
I know what I like, but more important than that, I know who I like. At least I thought I did. When my best friend introduces me to Verity Jones, my entire world is turned on its head. From the very first conversation we share, Verity has me fascinated, enraptured, and determined. I want to know more about them. I want to know what makes them tick. I want to know why they're so dismissive of me. I want to convince them I'm worth a chance.

Verity
Aaron is the most stubborn man I've ever met and if I didn't want him so much, I might hate him. He's made me question things I've always felt to be true, but the new feelings and developments don't seem to scare him off. It's been years since I settled into my identity and Aaron is mixing it up again, but it's more than that. Venturing into the unknown is scarier than it was as a teenager, but if the reward at the end of the journey is Aaron, there's a chance it's all worth it.

Worth the Chance is book four in the Giving Consent Series. It's 75,000 words featuring one sassy nonbinary main character, the beefy man they're fascinated by, a kitchen full of goats, and an unfortunately placed platter of breakfast meat. This book deals with gender exploration, religious trauma, and power exchange.

Landon
At eighteen, I couldn't picture a future without Gregory Douglas by my side, but we quickly learned life had other plans for us. Forced to move away from the first man I loved-who was also my first Dom-I went to college in New York, met my best friend Verity, and eventually we opened the club of my dreams. Rapture is a BDSM club where people with similar interests can come together-in more ways than one-and inside its walls I found more than just family. I found a home. One thing I didn't expect to find at Rapture, though, was Gregory himself.

Gregory
I thought I'd moved on from Landon, but finding him on the stairs at Rapture threw that idea right out of my mind. Feelings and memories rushed back and I knew, without a doubt, Landon and I were meant to be together. He walked away from me once, and I won't let him do it again. Even though I'm determined to show him how good we can be, it's a fight to give him what he wants, knowing it's not what he needs. We're both adults now, older and wiser...more experienced. There's too much at stake this time. It's not just our lives and our future at risk, but also our hearts.

Worth the Risk is the first book in the Giving Consent Series. It's a 78,000 word second-chance, power exchange romance with an HEA that can stand alone.

Jordan Chambers wasn't looking for a relationship, but a late night at the office finds him too close for comfort to a much younger intern. Danny is fresh and fun, and he's also the son of Jordan's business partner. What starts as a one night roleplay grows into a months long secret which shows no signs of slowing down. Danny leaves for college and that's supposed to be the end of things, only Jordan can't find anyone who makes him feel as in charge and alive as Danny.Danny Connery didn't mean to fall for his dad's business partner. He's gone away for college and there's a country keeping them apart, but Danny can't get Jordan and the games they played out of his mind. After a late night phone call, Danny finds the feeling is mutual, and all bets are off. Danny and Jordan tumble into a serious relationship that could have very real consequences for them both.Struggling with the distance between them and maintaining the lies they've told, Jordan and Danny reach an impasse when they're outed in spectacular fashion. Jordan needs to search his soul and admit he's in love, and Danny needs to decide if he's ready to be the kind of man Jordan needs or they face losing everything they've ever desired.

Years into their relationship, there's still no one Levi Kadish hates more than James Motel.

There's also no one he loves more.

Stubborn as they've ever been, the tension that's developed in their relationship is becoming a quiet threat to everything they know. Coupled with the pressure of living in a small town that's dying a long and slow death, familial infighting because of Cameron's lack of interest in ever being told no, and the struggles of working with five brothers who don't always get along, things are careening toward the point of no return.

If all that isn't enough to navigate, Levi's keeping a secret from James that could change everything-for better or for worse.

Forced to decide what to put first, his own wants or the well-being of the town he calls home, Levi realizes time-and friendships-have changed him. He's not the selfish and arrogant man he used to be. Once relentless with his confidence, his pride, his desire, now Levi must find out if he has the same kind of fight in him when it comes to his boyfriend, his family, and everything they've built in Cherry Creek.

CW: It's Levi and James...you should know what to expect by now. Lots of love, some rough words, and some water sports that don't happen on a jet ski.

They say the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else...

At least that's what Ben is trying to convince himself. Ready to put his ex-boyfriend in the rear view for good, he connects with a handsome older man who's only interested in something quick and casual. Their rules are simple-no strings, no feelings, and absolutely no kissing.

Thomas has never been with a man before, but in the midst of divorcing his estranged wife, he knows it's something he is ready to act on. He's wondered for years if his attraction to men is something real, so hooking up with an experienced and gorgeous younger man seems like a surefire way to find out. Better yet, it'll kill two birds with one stone: exploring the depths of his midlife awakening and moving forward into a brand kind of new life.

One time together turns into two times, and two turns into something regular, but the rules still apply... until they don't. Late night phone calls lead to early evening dinner dates, and one by one the rules are all out the window.

Ben was supposed to be Thomas's first time, and Thomas was supposed to be Ben's rebound...but what if the best way to get over someone is also the best way to fall in love?

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If you can't quite be the hero...

Ronan Thompson has made a couple bad decisions. On the heels of a disastrous anniversary date with his boyfriend, Kevin, he's worried his year-long relationship is headed toward the rocks. Struggling to find footing in the one space he's always felt secure-his dominance-he agrees to help a friend in need, throwing his life and his relationship into even more uncharted territory.

But you know he's not the villain...

Kevin Bryce could never love anyone more than he loves Ronan, but everything is weird and wrong, and upside down. Every step forward comes with two steps back, and Kevin doesn't know how to make things right. All he wants is to stand by his man, but when Ronan needs him most, he sends Kevin away.

When your love is your weakness...

Pushing through their struggles, Kevin and Ronan are experimenting, playing, and learning to love each other all over again, until the unthinkable happens...What are Kevin and Ronan willing to surrender when it's not just their love, but their lives and their future at stake?

A hero turned villain...

Alistair Sharp's life is spiraling out of control. His ex-wife is on a rampage, systematically trying to take out the people close to him one by one. Thankfully, the people close to him are smarter than her, faster than her, and always a step ahead. His inability to wrap up one pencil skirt wearing loose end is forcing him to question his career path.

An unsuspecting bystander...

Matty Franklin lives a fast and easy life, but he doesn't know what he's in for the night he finds himself in the lap of hired hitman, Alistair Sharp. With a bank account that doesn't match the size of his dreams, Matty is barely making ends meet until Alistair makes him an offer he would be foolish to refuse.

A surprising ending...

The former Mrs. Sharp is not interested in letting Alistair go quietly, but Matty isn't going to give him up without a fight. Matty and Alistair's entire relationship defies societal expectations, but is their union solid enough to see them through to a happy ending?