My mother always said, God doesn't give crosses to those who cannot carry them. This is the raw, true life story of the crosses I've carried starting at the age of eighteen. I shared a forbidden love with my high school sweetheart, like Romeo and Juliet, and it ended just as tragically to a game called Trust. I was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of twenty-four. I went through marriage, cheating, and divorce. I experienced COVID-19 and the pain it plagued my family with. I have carried the weight of the world on my shoulders, and through it all, I have struggled with choices I've made and learned that holding on to pain is a terrible way to live.